Blog 20/52 Connecting the Dots

I’m quite excited as I am able to construct a bit of a structure for my story. I’m still on the planning stages but I am very excited about it.

I’m connecting  the dots regarding my MC’s background as well as her family’s. It’s nice to finally be able to come up with something. Hopefully this goes a long way.

I hope the book I’ll produce will have some readers/admirers along the way. My goal is for people to actually read it and like it as well as be excited about it. Hopefully.

It’s here, BTW, should anyone want to read about it. It’s an ongoing series at Tapas.io (a Wattpad-type of platform for comics and novels.)

 

Blog 19/52 Weekends

It’s so ironic that I felt stuck writing with this certain prompt: Weekends.

It’s ironic to spend so many weekends crying about how much I can’t think of anything interesting to write about this specific keyword.

Those weekends I could have spent writing about other things…

Those weekends I could have used to write about the other days of the week…

Those weekends where I stared at a blank page, trying to come up with something and end up just sleeping…

Those days I kept on postponing because I can’t makemyself write anything…

Ironic.

Book 3/52 Angels & Demons by Dan Brown Review

I know I’m so late in completing this challenge. But I’m still hoping to finish 52 books this year so… I’m so glad when I finished this book. Also, it’s soooooo deep and the story is so interesting.

So this book is about the adventure of Robert Langdon across Europe, specifically in Rome. It involves a whole lot about symbology, the Catholic church, science and the Illuminati.

Here are some quotes I’d like to react to:

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I agree with this. Most Christian religions are based on the Bible. Even Islam is based on a book called Quran. I believe that religions are connected and some of the beliefs are actually intertwined.

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This actually makes a lot of sense. I am aware that some holidays we celebrate as Christians are based off of pagan cultures, like Easter, Valentine’s Day and Christmas. Early conquerors are very smart for “transmuting”.

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I also believe that people don’t have to kill to be called terrorists. As long as they are working to cause terror and fear, they are terrorists in my eyes.

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I agree. This is why I believe that there is no correct religion. What’s important is your relationship with God.

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This also makes sense. I even had a theory that God is the universe. He is fate, he is destiny. He decides about your fate but it was done long ago. Hence, what you call predetermination.

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Exactly!!! I believe that God’s mind is so brilliant we can’t comprehend.

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We all search for meaning, just in different ways and approaches.

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When we believe that there is someone guiding us, we feel safer and more secure that we aren’t lost and that there is something for us in the future.

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This is a great theory. And it makes sense especially when you think about how the prophets, wise men like Buddha as well as Jesus Christ likes to meditate.

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Technically, we are. We are all made up of atoms and those atoms brush up each other at some points.

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This is because religion is manmade, which means it’s with loopholes. I believe that the Bible is a guide but we shouldn’t follow it word for word as it’s only another person’s interpretations of God’s message.

I remember that this series was controversial and was said to make you question your beliefs. However, I have been enlightened, actually. Some things makes more sense now. I’m not using this book as a Bible or anything. It just made me feel more confident in my beliefs and my theories because I now know that someone else out there agrees with me.

Also, the book doesn’t make you go against the church. It makes you question if you are following the rituals because they make sense or because of blind idolatry. And I think that’s the beauty of it — having the freedom to evaluate yourself and your beliefs. God gave us free will and intelligence so that we can figure out what is moral and what is good.

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Blog 18/52 Favorite Foods

Because I am on my period and am craving for my fave foods.

1. Pretzels
Bavaria, blur, bread

I love how they smell, especially when freshly baked. And those dips. Smiling Face With Heart-Eyes on Messenger 1.0

2. Refrigerated Cake

baked cheesecake, berries, cake

I love that every bite is sweet and cold. It’s like combining cake and ice cream. Shortcake on Messenger 1.0

3. Rice (Especially Fried or Garlic Rice)

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I guess this comes from being Asian, or maybe because Filipinos love rice. Cooked Rice on emojidex 1.0.24 I eat like 3-4 cups of rice per meal. My belly is proof. Face With Tears of Joy on Messenger 1.0

4. Chocolate Chip Cookies

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I can finish a whole box in one seating. Cookie on Facebook 2.0

5. Potatoes

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Be it fries, hash brown, chips, mojos, or mashed potato, I’ll eat it!

Crossroads

I feel that right now, I’m at a crossroads. I see an opportunity to apply as a part-time English teacher. I’m hesitant to take it because I really don’t want to teach. I have my dream job right now which is to be an editor.

I’m currently a freelance editor, and business is okay. Not THAT successful but not bad either. I mean, it’s already a business. It’s just that I wanna expand and I’m not sure how?

Maybe I should hire a marketing staff? Or learn about marketing? I want more clients but I need more writers. But writers want higher salary, which I cannot give yet as I don’t have many clients. It just goes around in a circle.

I want to be able to offer a more competitive pay, but I’m not capable yet. So I’m not sure how to deal with that.

I feel guilty being interested in applying for the job as it feels like I’m betraying myself. I only want to earn more.

 

 

Blog 17/52 A Mother’s Love (Poem)

A poem about a mother's love.

others show love in different ways

nd some more than others, because they also have bad days.

esting and taking a day off isn’t an option in this job.

ou’ll understand when you’re a mother too, she says.

aring for us without asking for anything in return, tomorrow or now.

ven willing to give up their share, so that we can eat the full meal.

oving us in their own way — the only way they know how

 

Happy Mother’s Day to every mother out there. ♥

Blog 16/52 The Past

I’ve been thinking about my “past” for a few days now. Things I did when I was a kid (like literally 5 – 12 years old), that are so embarrassing, so wrong, or just plain irrational. Or the things that happened in my teenage years. I have a lot of demons. Some I face, some I run from.

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Alice Cooper (to Betty), Riverdale, S1E13: Chapter Thirteen: The Sweet Hereafter

Despite it all, I can’t change what has already occurred. Even if I get my hands on a time machine, I can’t change them as it may change the life I have now. I’ve always said that I stand by the things I do. As I won’t do them if I don’t believe in them. Yet, these things I did, bring me shame and guilt.

It’s hard to let go of it. Of all the guilt (and shame). I try but it ain’t easy. So how do we let go of the past?

IHMO, it should start with the truth.

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I loved this quote from #Daddy Fred Andrews. You have to be honest with yourself and with others. You must free yourself from lies so that it doesn’t overwhelm you. Stop lying and start living with the truth.

And then, face the past. Come clean and try to admit everything. Even just to yourself.

Here’s another quote from Fred Andrews that relates to me so much.

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I agree with Fred. To make sure you don’t have to run from your past, you have to face it head on. No matter what the cost, the truth will always be worth it in the end. 

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Blog 15/52 On the inside

all this darkness I try to hide
all these buried demons
keep coming back no matter how I tried
no time to make lemonades from lemons

there’s nothing to do but cry
i come up for air
but i get greeted by
life that’s never fair

there’s no point complaining
this world is my chrysalid
stop being a bitch and the whining
like my feelings were never valid

‘man it up and be tough’
always the advice, usually unsolicited
so i cry on the inside and thus the curtain goes up
the possibilities are unlimited.

the world becomes my stage
as i try to pretend i’m okay
even though it’s really my cage
on the inside i decay.