Blog 26/52 Winter is Coming

Game of Thrones is just

around the corner.

Winter has finally came,

the long wait over.

Snow will finally find out

Wylla’s not his mother.

We’ll finally see if the gentle giant

actually became a white walker.

I have a feeling the snow will finally melt.

His life will be taken by the other.

It was on the teaser, from the lips

of ned’s oldest daughter.

 

Blog 25/52 Strength

Strength.
To go on.
To move on.
To live life like nothing’s wrong.

Waking up in the morning
Already feeling down
Left the house frowning
Feeling alone in a happy town.

Sipping my coffee,
biting my bread.
Riddled with anxiety,
Starting the day with dread.

Tell me, please.
How do you go on with life
Living it with ease
As if evil isn’t rife?

Cari ©

Blog 24/52 My Online Community

Following a breakdown, I felt like I needed some people to talk to and to help me with stuff I wanna achieve. Hence the start of my journey in finding my online community.

I’ve joined some communities that have really helped me reach some of my goals as well as helped me virtually find some good friends.

1. WordPress Blogging Community

 

I found great bloggers here, (particularly @anisakazemi from iaccidentlyatethewholething.com) and seeing their posts inspires me to write more blogs and explore more topics. ❤️

2. NaNoWriMoCampNanoWriMo

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I’ve always wanted to write a fantasy book. Thanks to NaNoWriMo, I’m now on the process of doing so.

Now, while I wait for November 2017, Camp NaNoWriMo is here to save me.

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3. 10 Minute Novelists

I found this Facebook group by accident, but I found some writer friends there (albeit online). I feel happy to have found good souls even from across the globe. I’ve learned here that when you want to write, even 10 minutes is enough.

4. 365 Writing Club

This community is a subgroup of the 10MN. They help me stay on track and try my best to write daily.

I earned last month’s badge for hitting my monthly quota.

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It’s a small thing but being rewarded (even though it’s just a badge) for writing a certain number of words excites me.

I virtually met a few cool people here, too.

5. Online Filipino Freelancers

This community had been a great help when I was starting as an online freelancer. Although our views about things weren’t always on the same page, I’ve learned a lot from the members and I’m very thankful.

6. Fandom pages over Facebook, Instagram and Twitter

Since joining these fandom communities, I felt like the real me was freed. I was able to fangirl freely. I didn’t have to hold back because I knew there were other people like me who loves the characters/show/movie/book and understands the need to post/rant about them regularly.

I’ve yet to meet enough people online to fill my online friend capacity. I like that meeting people can now be done at home, or anywhere really. Finding kindred souls is easier now and I dare you to go find people who likes the sames things you do!

#TeamInternet

 

Blog 23/52 Favorite Characters

Whether it’s from a book, a show or a movie, I’m sure all of us have our own favorite characters.

Well, here’s some of them. Smiling Face With Smiling Eyes on Messenger 1.0

1. Sharpay Evans from High School Musical

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I have loved her since HS and I love her still. Her character was an antagonist but she was true to herself. When she wants something, she goes and gets it. I should just say this straight up, but I’m more attracted to antagonists or at least, not the typical girl-next-door protagonists and hero/heroine. I love that she can sing and have you seen her wardrobe? She fabulous. Winking Face on Twitter Twemoji 2.3

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I love that at the end of the movies, or at least the second one, she was able to care about other people than herself and Troy Bolton.

2. Petyr Baelish/Littlefinger from Game of Thrones

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I know he’s a bit of a psychopath and creepy AF but I really like how manipulative he is. He was able to manipulate people just by being in the know.

Also, actor Aiden Gillen is #daddy so… ♥

3. Paris Geller from Gilmore Girls

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Her character was so relatable, at least for me. She tries to be perfect and is perfect in her own way. She’s hilarious when she fails and her character’s so adorable. She’s one of those bitches whom you just can’t hate coz she’s so funny to watch.

4. Santana Lopez from Glee

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Her character is really just a straight up bitch but she’s just doesn’t give a crap and knows she’s beautiful. Love her singing voice, too! Naya Rivera’s portrayal is just perfect.

5. Lilly Truscott from Hannah Montana

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Being Miley’s best friend, it’s actually expected to have her as a very loyal friend. But I love the fact that she isn’t afraid to show how crazy she is and how far she’ll go for her BFF. She’s clumsy and impulsive, too, which I can very relate to.

 

Blog 22/52 How to Heal a Broken Heart

They say time heals broken hearts, just like with wounds. 

I disagree. 

I think closure heals broken hearts. 

It’s when you finally accept the truth and stop making excuses for the person who broke your heart. 

That deadbeat parent who always had excuses why he/she can’t be there.

That former friend whom you thought is reliable.

That ex-partner who cheated and blames it on your shortcomings. 

Seek closure so that your heart may heal and your mind be put to rest. It’s when you finally accept those people as they are and decide if you’ll continue the relationship or break it off. 

When you decide to stop waiting for your deadbeat parent, to focus on your other friends and to accept that it isn’t your fault your partner cheated, that’s when you get closure and have yourself a carefree and happy soul.

Blog 21/52 Friendship: Why I stopped looking for a BFF

I had previously posted about friendship, about how I had lost whom I thought was my best friend, and about how I had felt that I had no friends. 

🎶🎵Something has changed within me~

I can honestly say that right now, my thoughts about friendship has changed. 

One of the things I’ve learned is that there is no such thing as a best friend. Beyond my partner, whom I am actually open with about everything, friends are just people I need to make my days less boring, to talk to when I have thoughts I wanna discuss, to spend time and dine with, to get encouragements from when I feel down, and to have some to cry to and vent to when life happens. 

I’ve stopped looking for a BFF because labeling just one, creates a hierarchy in my mind. A list ranking my friends, if they fit the characteristics and if the boxes on my list above were being ticked. It makes me stop being a friend, and start being the parasite that I am. 

I ask what they do for me, what they can offer me, what their friendship would mean to me if I continue being a friend to them. All the others who don’t reciprocate my efforts are branded in my mind, that they don’t really like me, or that they don’t really see me as a friend. I forget that they also need and expect the same things from me.  

This kind of thinking was unhealthy. I know that now. It defeats the true purpose of friendship, which is to share a part of yourself to others so that they may feel loved and cherished. Or at least, that is what friendship means to me. 

I noticed that some people have multiple best friends. They aren’t just in the same squad, some have a childhood bff, middle/highschool bff, a workplace bff, and a neighbor bff. I do not presume to understand how that works, and I am aware that others can make that work which is good for them, but I do not want to do the same. 

One of the reasons is that I have always held the term “BFF/best friend” highly, because for me, it was supposed to be given to the best (hence its name?). (You can assume that I maybe saying this because I don’t really have a best friend, that I am just a lonely person dripping with social anxiety and bitterness, and that’s okay. Maybe that is true.) 

But all I want to believe in is that I have friends and they are all important to me. They may not always remember me. That’s okay, I don’t always make my presence felt either. Some of them talk behind my back, telling other people about how they really feel about me, and that’s okay too. That shouldn’t change the fact that they are important to me. I feel like, other people’s way of treating me shouldn’t change how I treat them. I shouldn’t stop loving a person just because they don’t love me equally. 

I want to be the friend that you can call when no one is there for you. That one friend you forgot you have. That one friend you didn’t know you had. That one friend who’ll stay even though you don’t see each other much. Or at least, I try to be.

Even though I crave the love and care of a BFF (I won’t deny that), I am content with being just a friend. Or at least, I am trying to. 

Blog 20/52 Connecting the Dots

I’m quite excited as I am able to construct a bit of a structure for my story. I’m still on the planning stages but I am very excited about it.

I’m connecting  the dots regarding my MC’s background as well as her family’s. It’s nice to finally be able to come up with something. Hopefully this goes a long way.

I hope the book I’ll produce will have some readers/admirers along the way. My goal is for people to actually read it and like it as well as be excited about it. Hopefully.

It’s here, BTW, should anyone want to read about it. It’s an ongoing series at Tapas.io (a Wattpad-type of platform for comics and novels.)

 

Blog 19/52 Weekends

It’s so ironic that I felt stuck writing with this certain prompt: Weekends.

It’s ironic to spend so many weekends crying about how much I can’t think of anything interesting to write about this specific keyword.

Those weekends I could have spent writing about other things…

Those weekends I could have used to write about the other days of the week…

Those weekends where I stared at a blank page, trying to come up with something and end up just sleeping…

Those days I kept on postponing because I can’t makemyself write anything…

Ironic.

Book 3/52 Angels & Demons by Dan Brown Review

I know I’m so late in completing this challenge. But I’m still hoping to finish 52 books this year so… I’m so glad when I finished this book. Also, it’s soooooo deep and the story is so interesting.

So this book is about the adventure of Robert Langdon across Europe, specifically in Rome. It involves a whole lot about symbology, the Catholic church, science and the Illuminati.

Here are some quotes I’d like to react to:

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I agree with this. Most Christian religions are based on the Bible. Even Islam is based on a book called Quran. I believe that religions are connected and some of the beliefs are actually intertwined.

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This actually makes a lot of sense. I am aware that some holidays we celebrate as Christians are based off of pagan cultures, like Easter, Valentine’s Day and Christmas. Early conquerors are very smart for “transmuting”.

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I also believe that people don’t have to kill to be called terrorists. As long as they are working to cause terror and fear, they are terrorists in my eyes.

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I agree. This is why I believe that there is no correct religion. What’s important is your relationship with God.

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This also makes sense. I even had a theory that God is the universe. He is fate, he is destiny. He decides about your fate but it was done long ago. Hence, what you call predetermination.

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Exactly!!! I believe that God’s mind is so brilliant we can’t comprehend.

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We all search for meaning, just in different ways and approaches.

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When we believe that there is someone guiding us, we feel safer and more secure that we aren’t lost and that there is something for us in the future.

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This is a great theory. And it makes sense especially when you think about how the prophets, wise men like Buddha as well as Jesus Christ likes to meditate.

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Technically, we are. We are all made up of atoms and those atoms brush up each other at some points.

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This is because religion is manmade, which means it’s with loopholes. I believe that the Bible is a guide but we shouldn’t follow it word for word as it’s only another person’s interpretations of God’s message.

I remember that this series was controversial and was said to make you question your beliefs. However, I have been enlightened, actually. Some things makes more sense now. I’m not using this book as a Bible or anything. It just made me feel more confident in my beliefs and my theories because I now know that someone else out there agrees with me.

Also, the book doesn’t make you go against the church. It makes you question if you are following the rituals because they make sense or because of blind idolatry. And I think that’s the beauty of it — having the freedom to evaluate yourself and your beliefs. God gave us free will and intelligence so that we can figure out what is moral and what is good.

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Blog 18/52 Favorite Foods

Because I am on my period and am craving for my fave foods.

1. Pretzels
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I love how they smell, especially when freshly baked. And those dips. Smiling Face With Heart-Eyes on Messenger 1.0

2. Refrigerated Cake

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I love that every bite is sweet and cold. It’s like combining cake and ice cream. Shortcake on Messenger 1.0

3. Rice (Especially Fried or Garlic Rice)

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I guess this comes from being Asian, or maybe because Filipinos love rice. Cooked Rice on emojidex 1.0.24 I eat like 3-4 cups of rice per meal. My belly is proof. Face With Tears of Joy on Messenger 1.0

4. Chocolate Chip Cookies

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I can finish a whole box in one seating. Cookie on Facebook 2.0

5. Potatoes

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Be it fries, hash brown, chips, mojos, or mashed potato, I’ll eat it!