Blog 10/52 Speaking of Kids

So my grandma told me I should have babies soon so that she’ll still be alive to see her great-grandkids. Like it’s that easy. Like I don’t have things to consider before making that big decision. Like it was her call to decide when I should be making babies. I’m not mad at her or anything, (I love her.) I’m just disappointed that she thought it was her call. She said I was being selfish for not sharing this part of my life with them (Read: for not obeying their advice). (My “wedding” plans are another story.)

So I just wanted to share these. Maybe it’ll help people in understanding. These are some of the reasons why I don’t want to have kids yet.

1. I don’t think my partner and I are ready financially.

Having a kid is a great responsibility. I don’t want it to be an accident. I want to want it when they come into my life. I want to tell my partner without hesitation. I want to be ready and I want to give my future kids the things and opportunities I didn’t have as a kid. My mom raised me to be a very calculative of the things I do, and I think this is one of the things that I really have to be calculative about.

My partner and I wanted to have enough money saved before going that direction. We don’t want to get loans and drown in debt just because we didn’t plan things.

2. I am not sure if I’m mentally stable to handle kids.

My younger cousins know this (I’m an only child.), I always tell them to shut up when I’m not in the mood to listen to them babble. I told them that when I am ready for them, I will talk to them.

However, even if this worked on them, I don’t think it’ll work on a toddler, much less a crying baby. I can’t tell my crying baby to “shut up, I’m trying to sleep. ”

And in response to this, people always tell me, “You only say that because you aren’t a mom yet. When you have kids, you’ll change.” And I’m like FU, you don’t know that. You don’t know me. I have the right to be afraid and you can’t just disregard my fear. I know I’m not ready AND I WILL HAVE BABIES WHEN I’M READY!

3. I’m afraid to give birth.

Another reason I’m afraid is because I’m afraid of my vagina tearing. Upon doing some “research”, the vagina “technically” tears (or is cut by the doctor) when a woman gives birth. I’m afraid of that. If my dysmenorrhea taught me something, it’s that that kind of pain is so great, I might pass out.

And you know, just the thought of my skin tearing? Or being cut? And sewn back? *cringe*

4. I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready.

Having kids is such a huge responsibility, I don’t think I’ll ever do it. But, you know, maybe I will. I like how cute kids are, especially the babies and the toddlers. But it’s different when it’s not yours. When it starts crying you can give it back to the parents. You aren’t the one needing to wake up in the middle of the night to shush and rock it back to sleep.

And in my opinion, a person can’t turn back from being an adult the moment she has a kid. And I am not very good at adulting. I mean, I try. but I’m not sure that’s enough to get an A+ in Adulting 101.

Do you think the same? Tell me in the comments?

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Blog 9/52 Favorite TV Series

Here’s the thing. I know I haven’t finished all the TV Series I mentioned in my last favorites post, except Legend of the Blue Sea (it was awesome btw). And Good Witch as I have finished watching all the available episodes on Netflix. I’m still waiting for them to upload Season 3.

But once more, I’m gonna list all the TV series that currently I’m obsessing over.

1. Vampire Diaries

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The series revolve around vampires, some witches, and some humans living in Mystic Falls. I’m currently on Season 7. I’m upset that they haven’t uploaded Season 8, which concluded like months ago.

I love Caroline’s character. She’s just very real and I just love how her character progresses in the show.

2. Riverdale

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I know some of you loved the Archie Comics as much as I did. Seeing the characters brought to life like this is amazing. Plus, I love shows with mystery and drama.

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I’m also in love with Cole Sprouse (portraying Jughead Jones)…

And because I love them bad girls:

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and Camila Mendes (portraying Veronica Lodge).

Even though she’s no Blair Waldorf. (You and I both know there is only one Blair Waldorf.) I just adore her feistiness.

Side note: Who do you think killed Jason Blossom, though? I can’t quite figure that out yet. 

3. The Magicians

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I haven’t started to watch the second season though, as I waited for it to conclude first. I wanna watch without waiting for the next episode. And I’m also afraid of what’s gonna happen to them. Last season’s finale was kinda extreme. I loved this show so much I even went to their site (which is like Pottermore) and took the Brakebills exam.

So far, these are the shows I’m obsessing over. Come July 2017, though, Game of Thrones will be added to this list. Face With Tears of Joy on EmojiOne 3.0 What shows are you watching? Tell me in the comments?

Toodles!

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Asking A Date from sweet&tasty

Reblogging for those who wanna learn Korean. [천만에요] Cheonman-eyo! ♥

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Phrases for asking a Korean out on a date, complimenting them, and finding out if they’re single:

You’re beautiful.
아름다워. Ah-reum-da-wo. (informal)
아름다우시네요. Ah-reum-da-ooh-shi-ne-yo. (formal)

You’re cool.
멋있다. Musheetda. (informal)
멋있네요. Musheetneyo. (formal)

Are you hungry? Shall we go get some food?
배고파? 우리 밥 먹으러 갈까? Bae-go-pa? Oo-ri bap mug-eu-ruh gal-gga? (informal)
배고프세요? 우리 밥 먹으러 갈까요? Bae-go-peu-se-yo? Oo-ri bap mug-eu-ruh gal-gga-yo? (formal)

What are you doing today?
오늘 뭐해? O-neul mwo-hae? (informal)
오늘 뭐하세요? O-neul mwo-ha-se-yo? (formal)

What’s your phone number?
전화번호가 뭐야? Juhn-hwa-bun-ho-ga mwo-ya? (informal)
전화번호가 뭐예요? Juhn-hwa bun-ho-ga mwo-ye-yo? (formal)

Do you want to watch a movie?
영화보고 싶어? Young-hwa-bo-go ship-uh? (informal)
영화보고 싶어요? Young-hwa bo-go ship-uh-yo? (formal)

Are you single?
싱글이야? Shing-geul-ee-ya? (informal)
싱글이세요? Shing-geul-ee-se-yo? (formal)

Do you have a girlfriend?
여자친구 있어? Yuhja-chingoo eess-uh? (informal)
여자친구 있어요? Yuhja-chingoo eess-uh-yo? (formal)

Do you have a boyfriend?
남자친구 있어? Namja-chingoo eess-uh? (informal)
남자친구 있어요? Namja-chingoo eess-uh-yo?…

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Blog 8/52 A Day in the Life

According to Wikipedia, “A Day in the Life” is a song by the English band, Beatles.

Here’s the lyrics:

I read the news today, oh boy
About a lucky man who made the grade
And though the news was rather sad
Well I just had to laugh
I saw the photograph.

He blew his mind out in a car
He didn’t notice that the red lights had changed
A crowd of people stood and stared
They’d seen his face before
Nobody was really sure
If he was from the House of Lords.

I saw a film today, oh boy
The English army had just won the war
A crowd of people turned away
But I just had to look
Having read the book
I’d love to turn you on.

Woke up, fell out of bed,
Dragged a comb across my head
Found my way downstairs and drank a cup,
And looking up I noticed I was late.

Found my coat and grabbed my hat
Made the bus in seconds flat
Found my way upstairs and had a smoke,
Somebody spoke and I went into a dream.

I read the news today oh boy
Four thousand holes in Blackburn, Lancashire
And though the holes were rather small
They had to count them all
Now they know how many holes it takes to fill the Albert Hall.
I’d love to turn you on.


Okay. I’ll tell you what happens everyday. But I’m gonna warn you, it’s boring.

Today, I woke up around 6:30pm. I did some chores, woke boyfriend around 7:30pm. We ate. Helped boyfie prep for the day, then he left for work around 9pm.

I started checking my writers’ submissions. I read them, checked them for grammar errors and edited them. I do all this while browsing Facebook and talking to some friends who’re still awake. Once those friends fall asleep or just stop replying, I take out my planner/journal and write about my thoughts. Then, I open my blog and try to come up with words. Sometimes, I also try to add word count to my WIPs.

I respond to my clients, and check for new requests.

When all is done, I open Netflix and just chill until he comes home around 7am in the morning. Face With Tears of Joy on EmojiOne 3.0

Blog 7/52 Smiles and the Resting Bitch Face

Quick question. Is there a cure for the RBF? No? Okay.

I’m just gonna put this out there. I’m quite a cheerful person. I could seriously laugh at anything, to the point of people thinking I’m weird. At one point, a friend of my boyfriend said, “Hala ka? You’re laughing like a lunatic.”

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Back in high school, I’ve always been branded as a snob. Which I don’t understand. Because I try to be as cheerful as possible. Smile at people (read: acquaintances) I pass at the hallways. Laugh at almost any joke thrown at me. So why was I labeled as a snob?

Come 2016. (Yes. I only found out about the resting bitch face, last year. Poor me.)

I was scrolling through 9gag and came across a post discussing RBF. *light bulb moment* That was when I connected all the dots about “Resting Bitch Face”.

After studying my face in the mirror. I realized that my smile, wasn’t even a smile. My smile looks like a poker face. And my resting face looks like I’m planning to murder someone. So memories of all the times I smiled at someone, looking directly at their eyes, flooded my mind in a series of flashbacks. *cringe* They must have thought I was creepy for looking them straight in the eyes, yet with a poker face. *face desk and cringing some more*

It became clear why my boyfriend always tells me that I am mad all the time, when I know I’m not. The reason why my classmates have always thought I was snobbish. (Also probably why I don’t have friends.)

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Like this.

So to solve my RBF issue, whenever I see pass an acquaintance in the streets, I squint my eyes and smile in an overly enthusiastic manner, but with a closed mouth. Just so that I am sure I am smiling.

 

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Kinda like this. 

 

And when I realize my face is resting, I try to smile the normal smile which would equal to poker face.

 

It’s really exhausting, to be honest. Not being able to be myself, and just let my face go. Just so people around me would find me approachable. Although, I think it’s too late to try to solve it.

How do you deal with resting bitch face? Tell me in the comments? 🙂

 

 

xoxo,
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Book 2/52 The Brethren by John Grisham Review

Okay. So I just finished another book. It’s called The Brethren. I became a fan of John Grisham after accidentally reading his novel, The Firm. Kinda got tired of reading romance novels. 😂
The book is about three convicted judges, who is running a gay reverse-scam from inside the prison. They were able to hook a very high profile politician with a lot to lose. And the build up to the climax starts there.

This book was not as eventful as The Firm but the climax was enough to not make this read a waste. Don’t get me wrong. The plot was okay but it was just a bit boring in the beginning. The plot twists were enough to make me turn the page until I finish.

Hopefully, I’ll be able to find another Grisham novel that would make me flip with suspense.

It left me with some questions though. *WARNING! spoilers ahead*

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Blog 6/52 Getting Stuck in Traffic

Traffic in the Philippines is one of the hellish things you can experience. It doesn’t happen every time but when you encounter traffic from hell, four kilometers (2.5 miles) can take you hours. Is that just great? Pedestrians could beat you to your destination.

Even though it doesn’t seem like a big deal, it is to me. I don’t like being stuck in traffic, unless I have someone to talk to, or distract myself with. I feel claustrophobic. Since this is a humid country, getting stuck in traffic only means I have to keep my feet where they are for hours I can’t even stretch, feeling my sweat pool somewhere unreachable and knowing I’m all sticky. (This may be solved by getting a cab or my own car, but not everyone has money to spend, ya know?)

The traffic is actually one of the reasons I am working from home and why I rarely go out. I don’t go out unless I really need to. And it’s also because I fall asleep. Imagine me napping, with my mouth open and snoring in public transit. Yup. That’s me. And so I try to lessen my chances of doing that in public.

Have I mentioned that it’s very humid right now? The summer season has come and get very sweaty. Beads of sweat dripping from my face and my armpits. Not a pretty sight.

Not sure how to help solve the problem though. Reduce private cars? Create more roads? Oohh, I know. Let’s all become online workers! Jk.

What do you do when stuck in traffic?

Here’s some ideas on how to be productive when stuck in traffic.

  1. Do your assignments/homework. Unless, of course, you need several books and a calculator, then don’t. This only applies to those assignments that requires a pencil and notebook/pad. I did this when I was a student. I did my homework, while on the train home.
  2. Read a physical book. I’m making it clear that you should not do this with a phone or tablet. This is especially appropriate when you’re taking a public vehicle. It doesn’t only endanger you but those around you. It’s like you’re trying to attract snatchers and other bad elements. So I repeat, read a physical book. Like your notes, or a paperback. I used to see students reviewing their notes while on a jeep.
  3. Observe. Okay, this doesn’t mean you have to be nosy. Don’t read someone else’s phone. That’s inappropriate. I meant observing people so you’re alert and very much aware of what’s happening around you. Notice people faces, the people beside you. It’s also a way of keeping yourself safe as you’ll be ready if anything happens.

How about you? What do you think of getting stuck in traffic?

xoxo,
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Book 1/52 Scrappy Little Nobody Review

First book I finished for 2017. Even though I know I am gonna fail the 52 books in 52 weeks challenge, I’m still gonna try. 😂

So this book is a memoir of Pitch Perfect’s Anna Kendrick. I loved reading it as it showed me a personal side of her I hadn’t known existed. I even thought that that attitude was scripted. 😞 Don’t worry Anna, I understand where you’re coming from.

I loved how the book made me realize that celebrities are more like me than they seem. You know, that they’re people, too. Finding out the Anna Kendrick lives in an apartment just like mine was humbling. I mean, I hope she receives more blessings, I just appreciate the fact that we are more alike than I ever imagined. I also look like a kid so I can really relate to her. I had just graduated college when I accompanied my cousin to her HS enrollment. The school staff thought I was the one enrolling and asked what grade I was in. 😧

I also liked how real Anna is, not even thinking of what other people would say. I loved some of her thoughts.

This statement hits home. Boyfie and I have had arguments stemming from this.

Love makes us do weird things.

I don’t wanna believe this, to be honest.

I’m an only child. So believing this would mean my feelings are all selfish and that I should stop feeling them. I mean, I know that I am NOT the center of the universe. I am just asking for a bit of attention. Does that really make me selfish? Hmmm. 🤔😔

Feels on point.

I have been feeling this for months. I can’t even play Sims and enjoy it as I have this nagging feeling that I should be busy doing something else. Something practical and money-earning.

Oh well.

You know, reading this book just made me realize how passionate I am with theater, acting, singing and literature.

Read Anna’s book if you want to know some truths about Hollywood and celebrity life. I’m off to read a new book, probably one from John Grisham.

Thanks for reading this. See ya. 😘

xoxo,

Free Writing Course! ( by Daniel David Wallace)

Reblogging for those who are as confused as I am on how to write a decent story. Let’s do this! ♥

Wow. Since I opened my short-story course twenty-four hours ago, sixty people have signed up. The post has been shared on FB and Reddit (thank you, Daniel C). Wow! That feels really good. (The first “real” email will go out on Tuesday, so if you sign up today or tomorrow before midnight, you’ll begin […]

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